Take me to the place I love, take me all the way.

Something occurred to me last night, right before I fell asleep (like all good ideas do) and instead of letting this one slip out of my head during full consciousness, I saved it in a text message.

I was reflecting on my weekend, and all that had gone on and determined that there are two types of guys.

1. Mentally stimulating, conversations consist of witty banter, fast and fun, but quickly burn out and don't last long, attraction reciprocated and acted on almost immediately, spans over a couple of weeks, months at most.
2. Oblivious of hotness, doesn't quite have game yet, an elementary-type pursuit that consists of a large "infatuation" phase where nothing serious happens for a long time, conversations are short and vague/analyzed to the point of nonexistence, can span over months or years.

While I have experienced both of these in college thus far, I'm not sure which I prefer. Naturally, I do quite enjoy the first, and at first glance I do like the witty banter and initial attraction a lot more than the second, but the second keeps my interest longer. The second also consists of a lot of mental torture and analytics, as I stated previously. That kind of thing takes me back to middle school--analyzing everything someone says and does to try and get their attention.

Another important thing to consider is the role I take in each of these situations. In the first, I think of it as a power struggle where I'm playing hard to get and the power holder. In the second I'm more likely to be submissive and agreeable, even pretending to like things I don't actually like just so we'll have something in common.

From a friend's perspective, both are kind of annoying to deal with, but I think the first is less annoying just because of length of which they have to endure my obsession. I also try to seem less obsessive when I'm pursuing the first, because it's part of the act, but in reality I obsess just as much. I'm just better at hiding it.

So where does this leave me? As of the last couple sentences, I think it means I like the second more. The obsession, the chase, the (almost creepy) worship, but above all, naiivete of it all. One of my favorite things in the world is being able to naively love somebody. Because in that state of mind, your love is pure. You're truly vulnerable, and that's something that goes under appreciated.

In the grand scheme of things, all of these boys are just a drop in the bucket, as much as I'd love to believe that they're not.

This also makes me think of a nerd joke my dad told me once: There are 10 types of people in the world. Those who understand binary and those who don't.