It has occurred to me that this is what love is.

I know that every moment of every day, my thoughts revolve around him. I know that when I am lying in bed (alone) at night, none of my worldly possessions around me matter, at all. I know I would leave them all in a heartbeat if it meant I could spend all my time with him, because when we’re together I don’t need anything but him. I know that every time I leave him, my heart breaks a little and I immediately start counting down the weeks, days, hours, minutes, until he can hold me again. I know that every single guy I’ve met since him has paled in comparison, in one way or another. I know that as long as I have tried to hide it, and as long as I did hide it, it feels good to just feel again. I know now that I hated hating him, but it was what I had to do to deal with the hole it left in my heart. I know that as hard as long distance is, it’s worth it if it means I get to hug him for as long as I want when I see him. I know that as hard as it is with only skype dates and texting to get us through, it’s better than being alone. I know that no matter what, I have someone that I can count on, someone who is always on my side. I know that no matter what I have a best friend, and someone to keep me company. I know that I don’t want anyone else — not now, and not ever. I know that he is the only one that has ever had my heart, and I know that he knows that. I also know that he would never do anything to hurt me. Because he loves me too.