I was feeling the need for a change.

So I changed my Google Chrome theme.

BAM!

I love my mom.

But sometimes I show it in a weird way. This weekend, we had dinner and she informed me that I won't have a car for spring semester.

Yeah, I was shocked too. I even cried a little bit. Her reasoning is totally valid, though, and it's mostly not hers, which is okay too. She just said she was tired of arguing with my dad about it, and I totally get it. I really do deeply appreciate my parents, and in a way I'm kind of happy they're taking it. Okay, so I won't be able to drive myself to work -- she'll come out and pick me up and take me. That's like designated bonding time every weekend, which I'm severely missing. I know it will also put a cap on my partying capabilities, which I'm also strangely okay with.

Bottom line: Sometimes I hate who I've become in college. And I wish I could go back to telling my mom everything, because I didn't have anything to hide back then. Everything seemed so much simpler. So this change is welcome, it's a change for the better.

I just miss the way things used to be. I miss having a steady boyfriend, I miss being able to tell my mom stuff, and I miss my dog.

I hate looking at my walls lately, because all they do is remind me of what I wish I could go back to. And I hate looking at Facebook, because I see how much fun Ryan is having, and I wish I could be there sharing that with him.

I can't say I would do anything differently if I had the choice. I certainly don't regret doing anything. I learned from everything I did, and that's all I can ask for.

Like Penn Badgely

But less hot.

The one on the right. Not the creeper on the left.

:(

Saddest view ever: An empty Nutella jar.

Consider the naked wall no longer naked.

I did something productive while blasting music loud enough to drown out Ben and Oogii having sex. An evening well spent.

Nutella = Love

I hate it when girls validate other girls' behavior to guys. You know. Your best guy friend comes to you with girl problems and you agree with him on every front. Yeah, the girl was a bitch, she's bipolar, she's psycho -- whatever. When you, as a girl, have done that very same thing. Dumped a guy simply because you're bored, but you've come up with a reasonable explanation, and you tell him that. In fact, in your mind, you have done him a favor by not letting it get too far. But that girl that he goes to will just validate everything, instead of doing him a real favor and saying "Maybe she's just not that into you." I know when I was having problems with members of the opposite sex, all it took was for someone to say that to me. And then everything clicked into place. And I thought, "Why didn't anyone tell me this earlier?" It didn't make it any easier to get over them AFTER the fact, but it would have saved me some heartbreak if they had told me before.

Whatever. Just one more reason to hate girls.

Sidebar: Everyone thinks they're the exception. They're not.

Thank you, Carol Phillips

Made my night. "You're reminding me of Regina George from Mean Girls with brown hair lately...at least she's the pretty one!" Maybe it's because I got a flask that says "bitch" on it in cursive. Telepathy.

I see it.

Winter Term '11

4-week-long intense term. The trimester's retarded cousin. I'll be taking ENV 200: Nature and Culture. The good news is, I've already read one of the books on the reading list. The bad news is, I've already read one of the books on the reading list. I have a feeling these 4 weeks are going to go by really fast.

Also, I'm taking yoga, which is based out of the Caldwell YMCA. As opposed to normal YMCA people watching which always consists of obese and middle-aged white people, we can add Mexicans to that mix. AWESOME. I don't know about you, but I can't wait. I also get 6 free "family passes" which means I can take Maria to 6 classes with me. Water aerobics here we come!

I also need to find time to read these. (But not necessarily in this order) :

Then again,

maybe I am a cynic.

On another note, I can't wait to go back to school. It literally can't happen soon enough.

I'm in the mood to buy useless shit.

My laptop needs this decal.