Yeah, I was shocked too. I even cried a little bit. Her reasoning is totally valid, though, and it's mostly not hers, which is okay too. She just said she was tired of arguing with my dad about it, and I totally get it. I really do deeply appreciate my parents, and in a way I'm kind of happy they're taking it. Okay, so I won't be able to drive myself to work -- she'll come out and pick me up and take me. That's like designated bonding time every weekend, which I'm severely missing. I know it will also put a cap on my partying capabilities, which I'm also strangely okay with.
Bottom line: Sometimes I hate who I've become in college. And I wish I could go back to telling my mom everything, because I didn't have anything to hide back then. Everything seemed so much simpler. So this change is welcome, it's a change for the better.
I just miss the way things used to be. I miss having a steady boyfriend, I miss being able to tell my mom stuff, and I miss my dog.
I hate looking at my walls lately, because all they do is remind me of what I wish I could go back to. And I hate looking at Facebook, because I see how much fun Ryan is having, and I wish I could be there sharing that with him.
I can't say I would do anything differently if I had the choice. I certainly don't regret doing anything. I learned from everything I did, and that's all I can ask for.
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